...and that would be me.
I owned that bright spotness, until someone decided they felt like unilaterally pulling the rug out from under me and in the words of Katy Perry, I hit the concrete...hard...and the brightness flickered. In my efforts to get up, smile and bravely ignore the blood running down my legs from my badly skinned knees, I tripped, and the brightness dimmed.
It's been awhile now, and I miss my brightness. It's taken all my energy to do what needed to be done, and although there's still more to do, I finally feel like it's time for my brightness to shine again.
I've been kinda feeling like a persona non grata for awhile now...before I hit the concrete, that was never an issue for me. I'm tired of feeling this way...on the fringe, half a step off, forgotten even. It's time to own my brightness again.
So to that end, my word for 2014 is REBIRTH.
I dislike the word "journey" as in, my journey of self discovery, my weight loss journey, my journey of healing. Personally, I feel like I've been on the Jornada del Muerto. But really (and I've had a lot of time to ponder this point), in the end, aren't all our journeys just living life?
Maybe it's wrong to admit this, but I don't have any real direction in mind as I start this blog...maybe it will be my own Jornada del Luz...a journey of light...as I just live my life, finding my brightness again.
So get out your shades.
i think we've all been where you are, Marla. i know i was. when i was with my ex, i came out of that relationship totally broken and i had no idea who i was other than a shell of my former self. it took time but i got up, dusted myself off and slowly rebuilt myself into the person i am today - even stronger and happier.
ReplyDeleteas for your blog - YOU DO WHAT YOU WANT! you write what you want. that's what i do with mine. my blog is a jumbled mess of swears and jokes and baloney with some seriousness when i feel like it but mostly it's for fun :)
-kathy
Vodka and Soda
I totally agree - do what you want with the blog. That's the best writing, when you're writing for you and where your heart takes you. Ok, that sounds cheesy, but it's true!
DeleteYes, your blog has to be something that you actually want to write.
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